Today is day 2 of my sober journey, I know I've had an issue with my drinking ever since I was in my teens. You see I'm what you call a 'Go Hard'... With everything I do I give it heaps and Go hard. This unfortunately also applies to the way i drink. I am in my early 30s, married with 2 gorgeous kids. I work full time in the Education field. Known as a sporty spice, excercise has been a huge part of my life and i live a relatively well balanced life. Until the urge to have a few drinks takes hold and its never just one! Ive found i have heavy weeks and quieter weeks but one constant is that i'm always thinking about drinking! I am sick of it consuming my life. I am positive there is so much more out there than a life dictated to by booze. A cycle of not drinking, feeling proud, rewarding myself, over indulging, feeling guilty and embarrassed, feeling hungover and ill, recovering and then doing it all over again!
I am a sloppy drunk, im thd girl who ends up falling over, never remembering the end of the night... the one my more sober friends end up 'looking after'. The one my husband dreads going out with because he can predict the end ( or mid way through the night). It's not a pretty site and I'm actually over always being the arsehole of the party! - I watched a story on Mrs D and her blog Mrs D is going without. It hit home, I had so many aspects in common regarding my drinking habits, my thought process, my family life and it helped me admit I too have the same issues and something has to change. Ive been inspired by Lottas book and the blogs of others so here I am. Keen to join the sober community and start my journey on the sober train. I'm scared shitless but i've made a commitment to myself that I need to sort this out. I'm hoping that blogging and reading will also help me like it has lots of others stay inspired to stay sober! Wish me luck! No more beersies for me. Although it should be no more winesies seeing thats the poision causing my inner angst!