23 days in and calm

So ive hit day 23... The last couple of days ive noticed a bit of a pang hit at the end of the working day so i tried the art of distraction, I filled a wine glass with water and lemon slices and decided to give it 10minutes and see how i felt.... the moment passed. Yay i thought i was going to have a nagging voice for hours yet it didnt happen. Im noticing changes... im a lot calmer and dont overreact as much to things, i have an ability to put things into perspective with a clear head. Im loving not having hangovers and my kids and husband are proud  of me for not drinking wine! It may only be day 23 but i live the sense of calm thats entered my world. Im noticing the payoffs in all aspects of life and its a true motivator. I feel proud of myself for once in my life! Bring it on!

still here...

Its been nearly 21 days since i knocked booze on the head. I am so proud of my decision and have been surprised by my willpower. Ive now been tested by being in boozy social situations and have resisted relatively well. Dont get me wrong, i would love to devour a cold bottle of sav or on a warm bottle of pinot noir... and i am still inlove with the sight of a nice looking wine glass... but i remind myself that i cannot stop at 1 glass and i never will. That in the end that goodlooking glass ends up filled with poison and i end up rst arsed and full of remorse sporting a hangover i spend my days trying to mask! I so wish i could approach alcohol in a normal manner but i cant. My friend pointed out the other day... 'im feast or famine'.... she was so right! So im choosing famine and i intend to keep it that way!

Sober Suzy, Sober Driver....

Well if there was going to be a test of my will and courage it was lastnight. A Saturday night full of celebrations and events surrounded by drinkers and people trying to break me... make me start my 13 days over tomorrow. A group of my girlfruends and i headed to a vineyard for an event luckily for me i had a pregnant friend to keep me company as we sipped our llbs and watched those around us indulge, it was surprisingly liberating being sober, not having to keep eyeing up my wineglass and how it was and weather it was obvious i was outdrinking my friends. As one of my gfs started to slip into oblivion i realised that was usually me. As the night wore on i dropped of friends and heading to the next function greeted by very drunken men, one being my hubby... wheels were falling off left right and centre and man did i cop it from some when they realised i was sober! But i didnt cave i kept thinking about how much better i was going to feel today than them. The night ended with me delivering various people home, stops at bk but here i am! I feel empowered and in control... fucked off i woke up with a shitty headcold so not quite as perky as i was hoping but... atleast i dont have a hangover to go with it. Now that would be complete arse! Another successful weekend behind me... so if your reading this blog and in your early stages... kia kaha people. Stand strong stay focussed
.... stay true to urself. Fuck Wolfie and hus mates and realise if others try to crack u.... they just need time to adjust and its about them. Not you ;) happy sunday x

first pub outing

Lastnight i had my first outing to a pub with friends... usually id be chomping at the bit to have a drink, would probably have nailed a few before heading out... it was a new experience all together and i surprisingly found it relatively easy... i asked for a soft drink in a wine glass which ive discovered having a wine glass in my hand if half my attraction to booze. I love having a fancy, classy glass in my hand. The range of wine labels on bottles did catch my eye and a few bottles of red tried to wink at me but i totally dissed them! So there we have it. A night in the pub with a soft drink in a vino glass followed by a peppermint tea to wrap up the night! Holy shit thats a turn for the books! And i feel stoked. I am definitely starting to come out of my haze created by booze and my body is thanking me. I have way more energy, im less irritable, dont snap so much at my kids.... my skin broke out when i stopped drinking, i think it was the toxins coming out .... my tummy had been quite bloated and i was starting to get a bit of a gut i couldnt suck in... its starting to flatten out a bit and is less tender.  I cant wait to see how my body responds to longer off the sauce!

No craving yet...

I have officially made it through a week without a drink! This time lastweek i was beating myself up after drinking the equivalent of 2.5 bottles of wine.... how i hated the fact my quiet drinks with a friend ended up like that! I was not in a good space and the next morning made the decision to quit the booze. So here i am on the road to self discovery armed withmy inspiration... quality books such as Mrs D is going without and nearly done with Jason Vale's book... these books have helped me shift my perspective and have literally keep my tank full! I already feel so much more full of life and sparkle... Now the haze is clearing im starting to feel disgusted and highly embarrassed looking back on some of my boozy behaviours but i cant change it so best not look back but continue to look forward.... I was worried once id finished Jasons book i would be a bet lost but ive stumbled across so many intriguing and motivating blogs that i know i wont be alone... this fills me with a sense of hope and happiness to help me on my way.... yay to not boozing! It feels great!

Sat night sober...

Very Random to be sitting here on a sat night without having any wines. By now I would have nailed my 2nd bottle of wine... Hubby came home with 2 mates before heading out for a few drinks. I didnt feel any pangs,  I even dropped them off in town. (Would never have been able to before due to drinking too much) ,
. As ive said its not about anyone else and their habits, it's purely about mine! My husband dosent drink very much at all he is one of those drinkers who can take or leave it! Man do I wish I was wired like that and not so bloody compulsive! Reality is... Im not so suck it up sweetheart and deal with it. Im feeling good although i have my fair share of knockers who cant understand why id give up drinking! They dont think ill make it but the fuckers can wait and see. I think this in itself will help to motivate me... It is very early days, lets be honest its only day 5 since i last drank. I feel good, motivated and inspired but i wont lie and say im not worried the novelty will wear off. Fingers crossed it dosent!

Day 4 Friday night Drinks

Wow, this Friday night is playing out mighty different to last friday. I went to the gym just like last friday but i am not on the wines and going to end up shit faced at the pub with the girls, not knowing how it going to end, how i got home, i wont be waking up with a hell of a hangover having to fake my way through Saturday for the kids. I wont be fighting the urge to vomit all day and then backing it up again on the sat night. OH NO I WONT BECAUSE IM SOBER IM NOT DRINKING AND WINE CAN SIMPLY.... GET FUCKED! Go me! Feeling healthy feeling proud... however this headache can fuck off with its mate wine! Thats getting annoying!